funny word to describe such bliss
reminiscing about your first kiss
thinking about a joke long gone
or years ago when you were young
laughter is good medicine they say
so spread the laughter and laugh every day
the sound is contagious
it can sound outrageous
everyone laughs in their own way
from snorting to wheezing to heeing and haaing away
chuckling to giggling to screaming with side pain
rolling on the floor your breath you are trying to regain
laughter
the act is joyful and besides your ribs all pain slides away
like nothing wrong has happened in days
just one simple laugh can make you feel good
so take a moment and laugh you know you should
laughing
makes your sides hurt
sometimes if you laugh too hard it can make you squirt
i know what your thinking
but i was talking about drinking
when you laugh while drinking you can squirt it out your nose
and yes if you have to go pee you could feel it soaking your clothes
it’s funny what a little laugh can bring
so do something funny and listen to others laughter ring

these thoughts in my head
sometimes things i dread
my life a big ball of confusion
sometimes i feel i’m losing
but strength keeps me going
to search the unknown
i’m turning 33 all grown
and still have doubts about where i’ve gone
trying to get along
and trying to stay strong
and they break you down
making you look like a clown
i’m tired of their shit
time to put a stop to it
before i put my boot up in it
no longer am i weak
from now on my mind i’ll speak
loudly for everyone to hear
i now have nothing to fear
from those jerks
stupid jerks

what is true happiness
is it hiding behind a variety of masks
in my mind you have to hide
cause true happiness is hard to find
do you put on a smile to make life worthwhile
while deep inside you feel like you could die
or do you wear your emotions like a hat for a day
always open for all to view
do you change do you change your mood split second
daily, anytime, anywhere
are you quiet do you observe and hope no one knows
or are you loud and don’t care how much your anger shows
are you secretive and hope no one finds out your life
or are you an open book letting everyone in on your strife
me i’m a mixture of things mentioned before
sometimes i’m loud and love slamming the door
and sometimes i smile just to make it through the day
often though i find myself not caring what i say
i can be quiet but not as much as the rest
i find when i let it all out i feel best
i’m stubborn and loud and can be heard over the crowd
but am i happy which is what this is all about
yeah i guess i could say that
after all happiness is what we make it to be
and sometimes when i’m angry that happy to me
it’s good to have a good fight every now and again
cause then you make up and you know what comes then…
happiness is living
happiness is being you
happiness is being the best at what you do
happiness is being angry and wanting to cry
and sometimes being moody when you don’t know why
happiness is cruel
at others expense
happiness is cool
when you have lots of friends
so next time you think you are happy wonder why
did you end up happy making someone else cry
did you get what you wanted to break someone down
did your happiness cause their frown
oh well just something to think about
just to open your mind and create a little doubt
are you truly happy

life can be eye candy sweet cherry pie
often twinkling that sweetness to your eyes
once you taste it you realize
theres more to life than just the pie
the first bite is sweet and dreamy
you try to relish in the taste only to become trapped
devouring a dessert so sweet
only an empty plate to meet
once you get past your first piece
you think that finding more can make you complete
you go through life one slice at a time
sometimes afraid of what you leave behind
enjoy the whole pie not just one slice
after all is said and done it’s your life
don’t leave in regret that you could have had more
spend the time savoring the flavor
and make it what you were looking for
don’t complain if your hungry after just a few bites
pig out and show the world your might
be everything you’re worth it
eat your pie you deserve it

as i sit and look back at my life
through all the pain and the strife
through the tears and the joy
giving birth to my boys
watching my dad get weak
then attending his funeral
having trouble making ends meet
trying to keep my boys fed
though there have been struggles and hardships
i’ve stuck through it and kept friendships
what i want most out of life
is knowing i left wisdom behind
cause its not what you do while you are here
but what you leave behind thats so dear
thats just my life at a glance
and when the time comes i’ll be ready for that last dance
no tears no pain
just inner peace once again

when i was little
i thought the world was a perfect place
no worries ever happened upon my face
i played in imaginary castles
made from blankets and chairs
exploring my world without any cares
went to far off places in my books
without leaving home
turned around and i was all grown
now i have to go out and make a living
seems like my life is all about giving
giving my time and giving my heart
when can i relax maybe i’ll start
no time for it now i have more work to do
no time to enjoy being with you
no time to think
no time to breath
ok time to relax but now i have to leave
where did my castles disappear to my worlds far away
why can’t i think of anything to say
my imagination has faded
my life seems jaded
my hope for tomorrow is fading
but i keep waiting
just a little bit more and i can sit down
right after i run out to town
i want to explore i want to get away
to those days when all i did was play
my time is up now i’ve become old and give out
hope my family i’m leaving behind has no doubt
that what little time i had to make life a good place
is what brought that last smile upon my face
my dying breathe has been taken
wasted my life running here and there what was i thinking
too busy to slow down to busy to stop
before i knew it my life was gone
can’t turn back now i see the light
i see daddy, granny everyone is alright
so glad to see you all again but i wish i had more time
oh well what can i say thats life

there is something magical
the twinkle in your eyes so mystical
like a fairy tale my life has spun into
a sweet tale of loving you
the spell on my heart you cast
diving into what i thought would never come
here at last
your magic has me in a trance
longing for that everlasting dance
just to hold you feels like i can’t let go
what you did to me i’ll never know
i sink deeply into your arms
knowing nothing but your charm
i feel like i’m dreaming
trying to stifle my need for screaming
wanting to dream for a million years
gazing into your eyes makes everything clear
my fairy tale is real
and dreaming no longer i feel
i’m awake and you’re here beside me
just like you promised you would be
the things i want to share
my soul to you i bare
i sit and i look
at this heart of mine you took
your love for me says it all
then deeper and deeper i fall
this magical world i longed for
has opened up its doors
invited me in and welcomed me home
married me and made me your own
the story begins to unfold
and for eternity will go on being told
i still believe that you voodooed me
so what happens in the end
well that depends
that story is still ongoing
and i hope it never ends

i sit looking out my window

amazed by the glory of the storm
in one split second it turns from sunny and bright
to dark clouds bringing with them early night
the trees start to sway showing the storms might
and the lightening blazes across the sky
i sit and look out my window
at the fierce storm rolling in
the lightening so brilliant in the sky
dances out of the darkness beautiful and bright
the thunder crashes
the rain comes in masses
pouring onto thirsty ground
where moments before dry dead earth was found
i sit looking out my window
as the power of the storm draws me in
so mighty and destructive
the beauty begins

my tears fall blood red full of hatred
of my wretched twisted life
they collect in pools on the ground
sinking into the desperately dry earth
with each drop my heart sinks
further and further into your created hell
until all thats left of me is a bottomless empty well

beautiful their lust for blood
like drinking a fine wine they savor the taste
down to the last drop leaving nothing of you to waste
the smell so sweet to them you are the finest of meat
tenderloin to their lips
fillet mignon your skin so tender
succulent to their taste buds
longing for more
their hunger for blood
growing stronger wanting more
watching and waiting in the dark
maybe as your walking through the park
watching and waiting
to partake of your flesh
the gift of life to themselves
death creeping into you
breathing softly on your neck
gently sinking in their teeth
blood rushing out
faint feeling rushing in
when you meet your end
the taste of blood so sweet
leaving behind their hunger for you to greet
you awake feeling drained and wanting
the same sweetness of life from you they took
you try to deny your hunger
until at last it overcomes you